I found myself trapped,
torn down by my own belief
in the importance of other’s opinions.
Circumstances out of my control-
lead me to devalue all but
the importance in myself.
No blame is laid on the events-
which lead me here,
to where I am supposed to be.
Great, unimaginable strength
was gained from all this bitterness,
turned from a negative to a positive.
Now we are apart,
a friendship is over-
but no harshness or hurt is left,
only love and gratitude
for the things we did not see.
I hear-
I see-
all that I am,
every moment that strengthens me.
Tears no more-
Fear is gone-
every breath is new.
The awakening moments of life’s
eternal spring.
Searching inside-
Finding the truth-
Letting the heavy burdens fall,
carrying the sorrow no longer.
Releasing the pain-
Saying goodbye-
to all the self doubt and never looking back.
Taking a new path-
that leads me-
to happy thoughts and joyful times,
which will soon fill my soul.
Fear was confronted today,
like two rams butting heads at full force.
No longer am I held down
by the words that wouldn’t come.
The words sprung from my heart-
a river that had no end,
kept turning and winding through-
to the point of life springing
waters of releasing bliss.
Freedom from all the sorrow,
No longer drowning
but floating on towards tomorrow
For tomorrow is a new day.
Where are you tonight?
Are you under the sky of bliss,
The thoughts of reflection
like a mirror that won’t go away-
until you break the connection of sight.
I thought I saw you there looking
back at me,
but it was only the watery reflection
of the things I use to be.
Have I found you after so many trials?
Of searching, waiting, wanting
to let you back.
You stand beside me
with hands stretched out
open to hold the value of Love-
Joy-
Hate-
The good always comes with the bad,
lost in you is not the exception.
Finding you proves the point of
one’s own conflicting dreams-
Imagine the ideas that float
freely by my tunneled vision,
Strength in every number that
chases you till the very end.
Starting this Friday I am going to try and commit to sharing more of my poetry. SInce it seems like my poems get the most likes of all my posts. I am going to start with a series of Poems I am entitling “Before I Found the Light”. The are poems when I was suffering in pain and turmoil with depression, before I was re-baptized last summer. I was baptized as an infant when I was a child, but last year 2016. I walked into a river in Texas and choose to declare giving my life over to the Light of the world. It was then I was reborn. Over the next 10 weeks I am going to share some of these poems ever Poetry Friday. I figure it’s a good way to end the working week. First Poem is the answer to a poem I shared before. the one I wrote at the age 18 about who I am. Or who I thought I was at the age of 18. I am including both to show the transition that occurred. I wrote the first in at 18 and the second when I was 22 years old.
I was once trapped in myself,
Now I am set free-
Free to my own self-discovery,
Enlightened to move into my own self realistic thought,
No longer do I hold onto my outer wall
It has been released to show the true me,
I now dance anew-
Sing an awakening tune-
Live for today-
Look for tomorrow-
For I am now set free;
Freedom will ring through out my days.
I was driving home after the storm –
The road was long and winding .
I had become tattered, and torn –
Until the sun broke through the clouds,
For it was only hiding.
Then hope lifted away the shroud.
So I could see your love and grace
In every single space.
Hold me to the Light,
Shine – snuffing out the lies,
Oh, Lord.
Let the seas of truth,
flash flood over the damn.
No longer are the words kept from the hungry.
Fill the thirst.
Fill the hunger.
Shine- Truth on every nation.
Lift my heart with understanding,
Teach me your way
Oh, Lord.
Let the truth of who you are pass from these lips,
Refereeing your unending grace,
to those who still need to see.
Let my light be a reflection
Unto your sacrifice.
Unto your grace.
And may we all stand tall-
In the Hope of Glory.
Like the wild flower in the woods,
I pay homage to the butterfly
With her transformative wings,
As she floats along the breeze.
Like the honeysuckle lining the path,
I pay homage to the humming bird,
Helping each bud to blossom,
As she flutters her wings with a steady beat.
Like the wild strawberry in the field,
I pay homage to the honey bee,
Guiding the change from flower to fruit,
As she hurriedly flies from bloom to bloom.
Whether you be butterfly, bird , or bee.
Each embraces life so differently.
Flying through the sky at your own pace.
I pay homage to the way you have been created,
With love, beauty, and grace.
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Bless the wings which fly,
me through the sky-
Finding the journey is shorter,
when you have the means,
to touch beyond the day.
New transforms the everness
marking a last goodbye.
You leave your past behind
to see the roots become,
nothing like before.
Can you imagine-
a day without sorrow.
Can you see the love?
It stops for nothing.
It cuts darkness like a knife,
leaving slivers of itself,
guiding the new tomorrow.
God bless each step I take
Bringing more confidence
Each hour before I wake.
God teach me to trust
Giving my heart more joy
Before it can bust.
Oaks Of Splendor 