I found myself trapped,
torn down by my own belief
in the importance of other’s opinions.
Circumstances out of my control-
lead me to devalue all but
the importance in myself.
No blame is laid on the events-
which lead me here,
to where I am supposed to be.
Great, unimaginable strength
was gained from all this bitterness,
turned from a negative to a positive.
Now we are apart,
a friendship is over-
but no harshness or hurt is left,
only love and gratitude
for the things we did not see.
I hear-
I see-
all that I am,
every moment that strengthens me.
Tears no more-
Fear is gone-
every breath is new.
The awakening moments of life’s
eternal spring.
Searching inside-
Finding the truth-
Letting the heavy burdens fall,
carrying the sorrow no longer.
Releasing the pain-
Saying goodbye-
to all the self doubt and never looking back.
Taking a new path-
that leads me-
to happy thoughts and joyful times,
which will soon fill my soul.
Fear was confronted today,
like two rams butting heads at full force.
No longer am I held down
by the words that wouldn’t come.
The words sprung from my heart-
a river that had no end,
kept turning and winding through-
to the point of life springing
waters of releasing bliss.
Freedom from all the sorrow,
No longer drowning
but floating on towards tomorrow
For tomorrow is a new day.
Where are you tonight?
Are you under the sky of bliss,
The thoughts of reflection
like a mirror that won’t go away-
until you break the connection of sight.
I thought I saw you there looking
back at me,
but it was only the watery reflection
of the things I use to be.
Have I found you after so many trials?
Of searching, waiting, wanting
to let you back.
You stand beside me
with hands stretched out
open to hold the value of Love-
Joy-
Hate-
The good always comes with the bad,
lost in you is not the exception.
Finding you proves the point of
one’s own conflicting dreams-
Imagine the ideas that float
freely by my tunneled vision,
Strength in every number that
chases you till the very end.
Starting this Friday I am going to try and commit to sharing more of my poetry. SInce it seems like my poems get the most likes of all my posts. I am going to start with a series of Poems I am entitling “Before I Found the Light”. The are poems when I was suffering in pain and turmoil with depression, before I was re-baptized last summer. I was baptized as an infant when I was a child, but last year 2016. I walked into a river in Texas and choose to declare giving my life over to the Light of the world. It was then I was reborn. Over the next 10 weeks I am going to share some of these poems ever Poetry Friday. I figure it’s a good way to end the working week. First Poem is the answer to a poem I shared before. the one I wrote at the age 18 about who I am. Or who I thought I was at the age of 18. I am including both to show the transition that occurred. I wrote the first in at 18 and the second when I was 22 years old.
I was once trapped in myself,
Now I am set free-
Free to my own self-discovery,
Enlightened to move into my own self realistic thought,
No longer do I hold onto my outer wall
It has been released to show the true me,
I now dance anew-
Sing an awakening tune-
Live for today-
Look for tomorrow-
For I am now set free;
Freedom will ring through out my days.
Oaks Of Splendor 